My anticipation totally gone.
My happiness totally gone.
Suddenly I feel so empty, so hollow.
I am upset, utterly upset.
Just because I can't go my dear's house today.

So there's is little 'conflict' between my boyfriend and my nu ren.
Apparently, they were jealous over one another.
I didn't mean to display any biasness.
But seems like my nu ren had lost the battle.
So here's the picture of the card that my nu ren specially made for me.



No more fighting ok?
I love both of you the same.
:)


According to a particular magazine, studies had shown that highest sex drive in humans occurs in the morning when they first wake up.
How true?


I want to get a long sleeve collar shirt with stripes.
I don't care!
And I feel like piercing my eyebrows.
I think it looks cool.



Sony MP3 hard disk walkman

I fell in love with this!
It cost $299, with 6GB hard disk.
Stores up to 4000 songs, with G-sensor (something like an anti-shock function) and 20 hours battery stamina.
The coolest thing of all is the organic LED display.
It displays the name of the song on the walkman without using a screen.
Damn cool, damn nice.
I need sponsors..

Damn the fucking person who stole

Huai Hui's bag!

Stupid idiot!
Hope you get caught soon!
You will get your retribution.
Just wait.

I'm a happy girl today.


Met up with my boyfriend today.
I was late!
Due to some reasons which only he knew.
Opps.
Supposed to meet at JE.
But dear came over to Boon Lay to wait for me.


We went to the New Cathay (opposite Plaza Singapura).
To catch The Da Vinci Code.
There aren't any shops yet.
But there's this super huge Adidas shop there, already opened.
I think it's the largest Adidas shop you can find in Singapore.
Lots and lots of varieties.
Saw a few jackets that are nice and I wanna buy.
But they were all over $100 :(


The Da Vinci Code is really a very nice movie!
I was worried that deardear couldn't understand the show since he didn't read the book.
But he did.
So proud of him.
The part on Silas chastising (correct spelling?) himself is really horrible.
I had my eyes covered for the entire scene.
This movie, I should say, kept most of the storyline unchanged.
Unlike The Memoirs of a Geisha, which was such a disappointing show.


After the show, we walked to Plaza Sing.
Wanted to try the white shorts at Outfitter Girls (20% off storewide).
Didn't get it in the end.
Went to Fox and got their vintage cargo white shorts for $28 (after 15% discount).


Fox vintage cargo.

Oh ya, and did anybody notice that the Singapore sales is on?


From Plaza Sing, we walked to Orchard, which is kind of near.
We went to Flash and Splash (Heeren) to look for deardear's Ripcurl slippers.
I bought a green hairband from a shop.
Then we went to the Puma shop at Taka.
Wanted to try the M size of the Ferrari shirt which dear bought for me for my birthday present.
In the end, I still prefer the L size which he had chosen for me.


Ferrari top. $70


My birthday card. Dear made it himself.


Walked over to Pacific Plaza.
Went to their Ripcurl and Quicksilver shops.
We had our dinner at Far East Plaza, Han's.
Nice and cheap dinner.
Picturesss....


Me and deardear


Munching the honeydew


1+1=2


Feasting on the cake?


Deep in thought....


Trying to be funny.


ME!

Sat at Han's until 10pm and reached home at 11pm.
A very nice day with him.
I truly enjoyed my self today dear.


A quote from him:
"I hope you will depend less on me, so that you will know how to take care of yourself when I am not with you."


Time to sleep..
I'm so xinfu...

WAHAHAHAHAHA!
My camera is revived!
I took out the battery.
When I put it in again, the camera functions.
Clever me.
Lol.
Here are some pictures.


The converse pencil case.


Famous Amos cookie.


NUM paper bag.


My green havaianas.

MY DIGI CAM IS SPOILED!!!


I don't know what happened to my digital camera.
I wanted to take the pictures of my presents when suddenly the camera hang or something.
I tried to switch off the camera but the lens just wouldn't move.
No matter what buttons I pressed, there is no response!
Argh.
Please, my camera..
Don't die on me.


I am proud to say that I ponned school today.
School is too boring and I had decided to skip it.
Actually, me and Grace wanted to hit town today.
But I decided to stay at home to pei my mum.
I hardly have the time to stay at home and accompany her.
I shall be an obedient girl today and help her do some housework.
Sorry Grace.
We shall go next week ok?
Maybe on monday when me and Sin Ying will be going to Heeren to change the size of my havaianas.


I changed my blogskin again!
Hehe.
Love this greeny skin.


I really hope my camera will be fine.
Pray.

25th May 2006


Today is the day where I finally turn 18.
I'm eighteen years old!!!
Yippee!
I'm 18 already!
I'm eighteen.
I'm eighteen..
I'm eighteen...
I'm eighteen....
I'm eighteen.....
I'm eighteen......
I'm eighteen.......
I'm eighteen........


Basically, today is so filled with surprises and touching moments.
When I woke up this morning and switched on my handphone, it was bombarded with lots of birthday wishes.
My primary school friends, secondary school friends, jc friends, outside friends, my og memebers, even my OGL!
I was so touched to know that some of them still remembers my birthday.


The first thing when I reached school, I was welcomed by my nei ren Sin Ying with two bags of present.
One is a green havaianas slipper, another is a Converse pencil case.
After morning assembly, when I reached class, I was surrounded by Sin Ying, Yen Ting and Chieng Siew and they sang me a birthday song.
I was so touched.
Jia Leong gave me present too.
Haha.
Although I returned it to you, doesn't mean I don't like the present hor.
Most importantly, it's the thoughts that count.
Haha.
And is you asked me to give u back de!
I said no need already.


After school, Wen Jun and Aik Leng gave me a slice of strawberry cake with a candle lit up.
But they refused to sing me the birthday song for me.
Never mind.
I made a birthday wish, blew out the candle and I finished up the cake before going to the hall for my physics spa.
Oh ya, physics spa.
I think the whole school must be super relieved that the question which came out was the one that we had expected.
Lol.
After physics spa, Tian Lu came up to me and gave me a box of Merci.
So nice.
And I found that there's something else inside................


After that I went home first and came out to Jurong Point with my parents and sister.
After meeting my big sister, we went to Crystal Jade.
My big sister reserved a table but the manager thought that it was for tomorrow.
So we had to wait for an empty table.
Finally got table!
We settled down and just as I was looking through the menu, my group of friends just popped out from nowhere and appeared right in front of me with a birthday cake!
I was so surprised and touched.
I almost wanted to cry man!
Haha.
So they sang me a birthday song in the super crowded Crystal Jade :)
After they left, Emily and Mabel who were sitting at the next table came to wish me happy birthday.
Haha.


I really want to thank a big group of people for making my 18th birthday such a memorable one.
First, my family especially my mum for making the red eggs.
I love you mum!
Second (in alphabetical order), I want to thank Chieng Siew, Grace, Elvin, Esther, Kenneth, Meng Jie, Sin Ying, Wen Long, Wen Yi, Yen Ting, Yong Sheng for the havaianas, pencil case and birthday cake.
Third, Wen Jun, Aik Leng and Benson for the strawberry cake.
Fourth, Yue Feng for the honey stick.
Fifth, Jia Leong for the wallet.
Sixth, Tian Lu and gang for the Merci.
Seventh, Grace for the card.
And all those who had wished me happy birthday!
Love you people to bits man!


I'm anticipating my birthday celebration with my deardear on Saturday and with my siao gang on Sunday :)


I'm happy!
It's true.
But sad that my birthday is ending in 1 hour's time?
It's ok.
Shall wait for next year.
:)

THIS IS MY 98TH ENTRY!


Today nothing much happened.
Managed to survive the gruelling two-hour gp tutorial.
The good thing is.
We do not have to do any work, like essay or comprehension.
She gave us back our TCA 3 and she went through it.
After that, we watched some video called The Act of Terror.
It's a documentry on the multifarious terrorist acts since years back.
The funny thing is.
They actually got the terrorists on the show.
These terror-executors retold what actually happened then.
All of us were shocked to see them on TV.
Some of them were already very old.
Shouldn't they be put behind the bars or have some form of justice done against them?
We have no idea.
But I found this way of interview rather interesting and unconventional.
Victims were usually the ones getting the chance to have the unjustice against them told.
The stands and takes of the 'bad guys' were ignored and they would have been deemed, without trial, as dangerous and unforgivable bunch of bad people, who only inflict pain and misery on innocent victims.
Haha.
Anyway, the video was super boring till some of us slept through it.
I was one of them :)


Rotted my time through physics lecture.
And we were given this survey to comment on our physics lessons.
Finally, the channel for us to voice our discontent had been made available to us.
Many of us had lots of 'strongly disagree' among our answers.
Hehe.
Rotted during the break as well and we went to civics lesson.
Then, Ms Ng told us some things which made me kind of symphatise with her.


Maths tutorial.
We got back our probabilities, permutations and combinations test.
I got 2/15.
Expected this kind of shit marks.
This morning, Mr Chai specially looked for me for a chat after the morning assembly.
He told me not to be sad about the test marks (in actual fact, I'm not really affected by it).
And he told me a lot of encouraging things, asking me to work hard for the A levels.
Thanks Mr Chai.
I know you are reading this.
Haha.


We had make-up PC today.
Supposed to run 6 rounds today.
But we ran 5 rounds only.
Haha.
At the very least, most of us ran.
Not like some particular people who stayed at the PE porch and played ball instead of running.
And nearly got the whole class into trouble.


After that, I went home already and slept.
Hehe.
Nice nap I had.
During dinner, my mum said we will be going to Crystal Jade this thursday to eat and celebrate my birthday.
Yippee!
I miss Crystal Jade man.
Yum yum.

4 more days to my birthday.
Full of anticipation.
Ah.


For now, I will just tuck myself into bed and sleep well.
There's school tomorrow.
Goodnight guys.
May all of you have sweet dreams.


PS: Suffering from insomnia?
Try thinking of me.
Counting sheeps is no longer effective.
Try it.
100% gurantee workable :)

o h t h a t' s s o c r a p .


PPS: I LOVE MY HUBBY CLARENCE.

I have a very, very, very big confession to make.
Both me and my sister are found guilty of spending over $200 in one day.
Uh-oh.


It started off with my sister who wanted to get the Adidas Brazil bag.
So we went shopping today.
And we wanted to watch The Da Vinci Code.
But when we arrived at Cineleisure, all the tickets for the afternoon and evening timeslots had been sold out.
Only midnight shows were left.
So disappointed.
Didn't expect the movie to be so popular to this extent.


In a nutshell, we went around walking.


I bought an Adidas Fushion Clutch bag $39.


My sister bought a green Adidas sling bag $79.


She bought me a Nike bag as my birthday present $61.95.


I bought a black and gold Zara top $29.90.
She bought the same top as me, not for herself, but for her friend as farewell present.
That's like A LOT.


I'd definitely overspent this month.
Got to stop spending money already.
Self-discipline + self-control.


My leg muscles are super tired now.
Because of the heels that I worn to Talentime yesterday.
Hmm.
Though the heels are like 3 cm long, I could still lose my balance.
Geez.
I'm really not good with heels.


Speaking of Talentime.
JJ had this talentime at the NTU Auditorium.
Also, it was Mr Koh's (our principal) birthday.
The performances put up by the finalists were fantastic.
But what really swept the entire audience off their feet were the special performances by two teachers from our school.
I really pei fu them until no words could describe.
Haha.
Well, at least they provided us with entertainment.


Ok.
That's all.
Got to do homework tommorrow to make up for the guiltiness that I'm feeling right now.
:)

I kind of dislike the raspberry blogskin.
Not that it's not nice.
But the thing is.
Everytime I visit my blog, it just wouldn't show.
It will be stuck at the previous web page.
I have to go blogger to republish my blog then the website will show.
Do you guys have the same problem as me?
Hmm.
So I'd decided to change back to my old skin.
And find the problem the next time.


Anyway, today's PC was hell.
The teacher demanded 8 rounds around the track from us at 3pm, where the sun was fucking scorching.
That was our punishment for ponning pc lo.
So we ran lo.
7 rounds only.
Hehe.
Plus the 2 warm-up rounds, total is 9.
Hellish..


Physics SPA is on my birthday.
Sob.
Sian totally.

Forgot to wish all wonderful mums a happy mother's day.


Something bad happened to me just now.
I was washing the dishes.
I guess the bowl I was holding was slippery due to the detergent and all.
The bowl just slipped off my hand and landed on my hands.
Yup.
The bowl smashed into pieces and cut my right and left hands.
A tiny cut on my left arm.
And a super deep cut on my right thumb.
The cut on my right thumb bleeded and bleeded.
I was too shocked to do anything and I just put my thumb under the running water.
More blood spurted out as the water washed away the overflowing blood.
My mind was in a blank.
I was too scared.


My father came and saw the blood in the sink.
He shouted for my mum and I finally broke out from the trance.
I went to the cupboard and got cotton buds.
By then, I had left a trail of blood on the floor.
No matter how many cotton buds I put, the blood wouldn't stop.
I finally cried.
I thought I was strong.
But I was too scared.


My mum came to my rescue and helped me stop the blood.
She used a string to tie my thumb to add pressure to it.
Within 15 minutes, the blood stopped.
Whew.
Finally.
My father came out of the room once in a while to check my thumb.
My mum removed the cotton buds that were SOAKED with my blood.
Together, my father and my mum put a plaster over the wound.
At the moment, I felt so xin fu~
I love my mama and papa :)


Alright.
Time to sleep.
Goodnight people.

Change a new blogskin.
Fell in love with the ice cream.
Original.
But I don't know if I will change back to the previous blogskin.
See how it goes.

I want to show everyone this picture.
Haha.
Doesn't the group of people walking behind me look like a gang following their leader (me)?
Lol.
It was a candid shot.
I wasn't aware when this picture was taken.
It looked so natural.
The group of people behind me were my classmates.
Haha.


Nothing much and interesting to write.
Didn't go out the whole day today.
I told my mum yesterday that I want to bring her to Crystal Jade today to celebrate Mother's Day.
Then I was advertising to her how nice Crystal Jade was and I was super enthu about bringing her there for Mother's Day celebration, when the truth was I wanted to satisfy my own craving for Crystal Jade.
My mum actually saw through me!
Opps.
Clever mum.
Or I should say she understands her daughter so well.


She couldn't decide and said wait for my father to come home and discuss with him.
Then, yesterday night me, Grace and Hooi Ling were discussing whether to go out today.
Since my mum hadn't make up her mind, I couldn't confirm with them.
Today, my mum decided not to go Crystal Jade because she don't want me to spend.
She said when I work already then treat her.
Haha.
So in the end, I didn't go anywhere today.


Rotted my way through the whole day.
Woke up at 1030am.
Could hear my parents talking in the living room and my mum's constant reminders to ask my father to lower his volume so as to not wake me up.
Brushed teeth and washed face.
Ate breakfast.
Went online and surfed the net.
Had lunch and couldn't finish it.
Continued my net-surfing after that.
Then watched tv.
Online again.
Jia Leong got me a nickname: poo poo.
I suggested him to call me pooh pooh but he said poo poo is easier to type.
Had dinner and watched tv.
Went to bathe.
Watched tv again.
And here I am, online and blogging.


My house is seriously a temptation island.
Why?
Because out of a sudden, my house had an abundant supply of FOOD.
My father bought a big bag of cheese biscuits the other day.
Then he bought a big box of Oreo cookies, few cans of Milo and Nescafe iced coffee yesterday.
My second sister bought a huge bag of vanilla biscuits yesterday too.
Today, my father went to Giant at Pioneer Mall and bought two 1.5 litres of ice cream.
Argh.
I'm going crazy.
I am one person who succumbs to temptations.
Hai.
There goes my slimming programme.


By the way, while I was surfing through the net today, I found this super nice website,
http://www.maybelline.com/home.aspx?res=true
People, you should go check this out.
There are make-up tips and know-hows.
There is also a virtual make-up hands-on, also call the make-up studio.
Go explore and try it.
It's fun.


I was watching this Channel 8 show at 9pm starring Fann Wong.
His husband in the show had two extra-maritals affairs and she magnanimously forgived him.
Yet the husband didn't know how to cherish and went for another affair.
I seriously felt indignant for his wife.
She does not need and should not continue to put up with his nonsense.
Hai.
Hate married guys who flirt and betray their wives.
Yucks!


I'm going out for a movie with my deardear tomorrow.
Mission Impossible 3.
Tom Cruise, here I come!
Haha :)

My dream phone, Sony Ericsson W800i.
I want it!
If only I can own it NOW :(

What should be the main topic of this update?
I'm cracking my small brain to think of it.
The class outing I had yesterday?
Sin Ying had already done a full coverage on it so I won't touch on that.
Anyone who wishes to know more about the outing, please go to her blog :)


Ok, here comes.


Is it alright to splurge?
What is splurging?
Throwing tonnes and tonnes of hard-earned money away for some useless and unneccessay things?
Or is it a way to satisfy your own needs?
Is it a crime?
Or an unforgivable sin?


I find that many people, including me had been spending lots of money.
Especially when we go for shopping sprees.
Many people, particularly the girls would attest to it.
It is extremely difficult for us to not fork out the money for things that we LIKE.
You may be asking are we spending money for the sake of spending or are we getting the things that we REALLY need.
Well, I can say that we have no idea sometimes.
At instances, we can be so implusive that we buy the design and the brand but not for the practicality of it.
As humans, who doesn't wish to own things that will look good or beautify yourself.
It's natural, a part and parcel of life.


There are some people who can forsake and sacrifice their allowance just to save up and get the things they wanted.
Some can rather go hungry on their stomachs just to have the money to buy their wants.
I'm not an exception.
You may say that we are foolish and stupid.
But believe me, we think otherwise.
Moreover, we are not born with a silver spoon.


Who doesn't spend money?
It's only a matter of the type and the kind of wants that different people of different age, race and interests go after.
Some are crazy over clothes.
Some are crazy over comics and toys.
Some are crazy over cars and condos.
Some are crazy over antiques.
Some are crazy over jewelleries.
And the list goes on and on and on...
Never ending.
Perpetuating.
I'm just generalising.
I'm not picking on another one in particular :)


I used to spend very little when I was young (not that I'm very old now).
A mere $10 can settle everything in an outing.
But as time goes by, as we get older, the stuffs we shop got more expensive.
Till then, $10 will not be enough.
Not enough to eat two nice meals.
We will start lamenting why we do not have enough money.
Being still financially dependent, we will ask more money from our parents.
And our parents will start to whine and lecture you on money-spending.
Is this process part of growing up and maturing?
Or is it just an excuse for you to spend MORE money?
I'm not sure.


Why are we always not satisfied with the current things we own?
Must we always buy new things to replace the old ones?
A viscous cycle?
Ah.
I don't know.
Guess I'm too simple-mind to know.

This is my 89th post since last year March.
Yippee :)


Actually I wanted to update like half an hour ago but I was multi-tasking till I had no hands to type.
I was rubbing my blueblacks with my left hand and chatting with my dear on msn, typing using my right hand.
When I was about to update, I realised I had no more hands.
Lol.
Ok, not funny lo.
Ah, my blueblacks.
Suck lo.
Got this super big patch of blueblack on my right leg which is super super ugly.
Like I had contracted some diseases.
Yucks.
But I think they are healing already?
The clot blood is dispersing.
Yeah.


I had a wonderful afternoon nap today!
Yippee.
I reached home at 2pm and fell straight to sleep until 6pm.
This is so cool man!
I was feeling so tired today.
Though I was physically awake at 635am this morning, my mind was still sleeping until 11am plus.
So you could see me daydreaming and stoning in the morning.
And I was super quiet in class.


Our class will be having our very first class outing to Sentosa.
This is so unbelievable.
I hope the class outing will turn out fun!
Haha.


Just now I was reading two of my classmates' blog.
They were hauling rather harsh words to each other.
Kind of scary.
Though I don't really know what triggered off the fight, but hope all waters are under the bridge already.


Lately, people around me are not feeling too happy.
I hope everything will be fine.